Sunday, June 22, 2025

Painting my way back to myself

Life can be overwhelming. Not just too busy, or too expensive, or too demanding. or too much, but your body starts to revolt, and your priorities are blurred. Then all of the sudden you feel numb, hopeless, lost...

I turned 50 this year and had a revelation of sorts.
            some may say "mid-life crisis"
                        some may say "perimenopause"
                                   others may call it "depression"
                                                "identity confusion"   "loss of purpose"   "feeling less relevant"

DOES IT HAVE TO HAVE A LABEL?!

The answer is no.

DOES IT STILL HURT?

The answer is yes.

I quit my job. Took an ambulance ride. Stopped the world from spinning around me. Took a road trip. Reconnected with family. Went to too many doctor appointments. Breathed deeply. Read my Bible, like really read it, slowly and intentionally. I started therapy again. I slowly began to recognize myself again. Not the woman I was before I quit working, not the mom I was for the past 23 years, not the wife/partner I have been for close to 30 years. The person God created me to be. The person my family saw me as, not as I saw myself.

Now what?

I enrolled in a continuing Ed course at Kennesaw State University for Advanced Painting. The healing continues...












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