I turned 50 this year and had a revelation of sorts.
some may say "mid-life crisis"
some may say "perimenopause"
others may call it "depression"
"identity confusion" "loss of purpose" "feeling less relevant"
DOES IT HAVE TO HAVE A LABEL?!
The answer is no.
DOES IT STILL HURT?
The answer is yes.
I quit my job. Took an ambulance ride. Stopped the world from spinning around me. Took a road trip. Reconnected with family. Went to too many doctor appointments. Breathed deeply. Read my Bible, like really read it, slowly and intentionally. I started therapy again. I slowly began to recognize myself again. Not the woman I was before I quit working, not the mom I was for the past 23 years, not the wife/partner I have been for close to 30 years. The person God created me to be. The person my family saw me as, not as I saw myself.
Now what?
I enrolled in a continuing Ed course at Kennesaw State University for Advanced Painting. The healing continues...
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